The Unfiltered
Nine videos. One Ground. No arrival.
$800 — nine videos of brutal honesty and touching rawness, direct to camera, in my true voice, with nothing smoothed out.
The first one is free — you can find it a little further down.
Where you are now
What you are looking for is what is looking.
If that sentence does something in you — a small drop in the chest, a flicker you cannot yet account for — keep reading. If it does nothing, you can close this and move on; nothing here will reach you, and that is also fine.
You have spent years now taking in other people's certainty in your quest to unravel the mysteries of the universe and — most importantly — yourself. The confident "teachers". The produced courses — lit well, edited clean, every sentence landing on the beat. You learned a great deal from them. And somewhere along the way you noticed something you could not quite say out loud: the more polished the delivery, the less of you it actually reached.
That is not cynicism. It is discernment. The polish was the problem — the opaque (and, in reality, blurry) surface you could not see through, no matter how hard you tried (and I know that you have tried too hard).
The Unfiltered is the polar opposite of that — it's probably the hallmark of the unpolished — yet direct, true and meaningful — presence. Nine short videos, recorded direct to camera, in a voice that does not always cooperate — and is not edited to pretend otherwise.
Hear a few minutes of my unedited voice for yourself, before anything else.
If what you just heard and saw reached you, the rest of the course is yours. If, instead, it didn't move (anything in) you, you have lost nothing (haven't you?).
What The Unfiltered actually is
Nine videos. About 10 minutes each. Direct to camera — my face, my voice (inevitably coloured by the dysarthria the strokes I suffered from in 2024 left me with), audible and unedited. You will hear me reach for a word and not always find it on the first pass. That is not a flaw in the recording. That, in a real sense, is the recording.
There are nine recordings, by the way — not ten. Ten would signal a course that completes you. Nine refuses to. The number itself is the thesis. That's another test for you. If you are still chasing such chimeras as "finality" and "completeness", I can assure you that you're in the wrong place.
Now, then, the nine videos:
- Video 0 — Grounding (the free one — embedded in the text above) — You will always do exactly what you need to do; the Ground always has your back; the rest is a story the masquerade enveloping your world (YOU) keeps on repeating, like a hopelessly broken record, to keep you trapped within the most delicate of hamster wheels.
- Video 1 — The fragmentation illusion — You are not split. The Ground underneath has never, for one moment, been fragmented (it could never be).
- Video 2 — Diagnosis — What you have been doing about your "condition" — and why every fix aimed at the fragmentation illusion only deepened it.
- Video 3 — The true arrival IS the neverending journey — There is no way to be all of it. The impossibility and the already-ness turn out to be the same sentence, said from two sides.
- Video 4 — The Unblemishable Foundation — The Ground — what it actually is — in as honest as possible words, which, however, could never do it justice.
- Video 5 — The infinite approach — The only way to be close to your One and Only Truth. The walk toward it is itself the recognition, not a compromise pending arrival.
- Video 6 — The unavoidable unfiltering — What it cost me to stop filtering: the catalytic event that almost killed me, and the choice to transmit anyway after it (and BECAUSE of it).
- Video 7 — The way of the Forerunner / Prodromos — The non-arrived teacher. A teacher who has arrived cannot accompany you — they have nowhere left to walk from.
- Video 8 — Your very own movement is the key — This is not a promise of outcomes, but the gradual inhabitation of a certain, rarefied quality of movement, which is, in other words, an action that no longer drags the weight of not-yet-enough behind it.
The moment you go for the full series, you get access to all of the nine recordings — watchable in any order, as many times as you want.
Who is on the other side
I am the one who is also walking — slightly ahead of you, on the same trail as you are, and nowhere near its end.
I am definitely not a "guru". I will never call myself one, and anyone who does, you can safely assume is a crook. The arrived-teacher pose is the most sophisticated mask in this domain, worn mostly by, deliberate or inadvertent, frauds — and I have no interest or predisposition in wearing such a mask (or any for that matter) to appeal to you or to anybody else.
What I am instead is an unrepeated form of the trail itself. Several books and creations mark it so far; and the inquiry that has been bringing them to life since the 1990s has not yet finished with me — nor will it ever.
As already mentioned, the most recent stretch of this path runs through a body that nearly gave up on me. In 2024 I suffered from multiple strokes. They took my singing voice away (among other things, I was a tenor and an actor) and affected my speaking one, significantly. You will hear that in every single one of these videos — the reach for a word, the pause that is not there for effect. I could have hired someone to script me, smoothed the rest in the edit, and handed you something clean. I did not, and I will not. The unfiltered voice is the only one that carries what I am here to transmit; the constraint is not in the way of the transmission — most of the time, it is the transmission itself.
Now, it took me a long time to see that the answer I was looking for does not exist — and then, slowly, the question behind it dissolved. What is left I can only point at: an emptiness full of life, a presence underneath everything, including me, you, everybody and everything.
I'm as lost as you are. That is exactly why I can walk with you. The found ones cannot — they left.
What becomes possible
Not a transformation. Not a breakthrough. Not the "arrival" you may still — despite all the prior disappointments and the strong indications to the contrary — be hoping for.
Something quieter, and far harder to sell: a change in the quality of your own movement. Action that no longer drags the weight of not-yet-enough behind it. Speech that no longer edits itself, mid-breath, toward what you think others will accept. A presence that arises in the forefront of your life, constantly, naturally and effortlessly — because it springs from the Ground, and not from the endless project of managing yourself.
I cannot promise you that any of this fits in a schedule. What I can tell you is what the nine videos of the Unfiltered point at — and that is exactly what the one speaking in these videos also does through his unedited voice.
Who this is for
There is no application here — anyone can get the Unfiltered. The only filter is the free video, and you. Still, it is not for everyone, and I would rather you know whether it is for you before you make your decision.
This is for you if you have done well by every visible measure, and cannot shake the sense that the life you built is not the one you are actually here for.
It is for you if you have stopped trusting unwavering confidence — if the smooth, the certain, the well-produced now reads to you as something to be wary of, rather than something to follow.
It is for you if you have read the "must-read" books and sat with some of the most "prominent" teachers — and what stood between them and you, every time, was precisely their spotlessness: a surface too polished to see through.
It is not for you if you want a method, a system, a set of steps, a guarantee that you will finally get a "definitive" answer to your biggest and most persistent questions — those that won't let you be in peace. I do not have such answers — and these videos do not pretend to offer them either; thankfully, so. Why thankfully?
Watch the Unfiltered.
What it costs
$800. Nine videos, yours the moment you buy, watchable as often as you want.
No refund — and here is the honest reason. These are videos; once watched, they cannot be handed back. A money-back guarantee on something you can take in over a single evening is not honesty — it is theatre. So instead of asking you to trust a refund, I am asking you to trust your own ears: the first video is free. Watch it. If my voice does not reach you, you will know — and you will not have paid a cent.
My honest answers to a few valid questions
How is this different from the 102 Companions (book and accompanying offerings)?
The book is companionship in writing — one hundred and two companions you reach for, slowly, over time, as you journey to (and from) your One and Only Truth. The Unfiltered is direct transmission: my face, my voice, looking at you. Also: the book you read at your own pace; these videos you hear in my voice — impaired from the strokes and what have you. Same Ground, two different ways in. (By the way, here's the link to the 102 Companions, if you want to go for it as well.)
Why is there no live session, like in the case of 102 Companions?
Because the live forty minute session belongs to the respective tier — that is its defining thing, and I will not water it down by attaching one here too. The Unfiltered is the videos: nine recognitions, in my raw, unedited, direct voice. If, after them, you want time with me directly, 102 Companions (and the tiers beyond it) is where you can find it.
Can I try before I buy?
Yes — that is exactly what the free first video is for. Watch it. The whole offer rests on whether my voice reaches and moves you, so I would rather you find that out for free than take my word for it.
What is the format, and how long is it?
Nine videos, about 10 minutes each — roughly one and a half hours in total. The Unfiltered is short by intentional design: each of the recordings comprising it is a single, standalone, living statement, not a module of a course. In this very register, length is the enemy of precision and truthfulness.
When do I get access?
The moment your payment clears. You receive an email granting you access to all nine videos, so you can watch them whenever, in whatever order, as many times as you want.
How to get it
If you have watched the first, free video and something in you has already moved, the way in is below.
If you have not watched it yet — start there. Everything here rests on whether my voice reaches you, and a few minutes of listening to it will show you more honestly whether this is the case than anything I could write on this page.
And if you are still unsure after that — let it sink in, for as long as you need, and come back here when you feel ready. The videos will still be here.
Walk with me.